what can i do

i,m sorry because of my actuation, i make a long decision of my life,i know that is not working, but i still going to try,i know any decision will have they risk, but if we did not confrontation on risk, i think it will be little hard to success,i know about this concept, but without support and encourage from my parent, i can not make it, eventually the most powerful motivation i think it will come from our's parent support.